Disabled identity, 2020
Acrylic on canvas, wood, cards
According to COVID-19 pandemic I started to paint white, simple storage cabinets. I painted a lot of them and my honest plan was to put objects there. I was thinking what kind of an objects i will put and in what way, because everything was important: place, capacity, transparency, shadows. But I left all my storage cabinets empty. At the end I realized, that filling those with emptiness is the best solution. I am functioning as an author and this emptiness is kind of distance of mine. I did not want to regularize a still life. I wanted to make art and be free of formality. B. Groys wrote, that all culture of human being is built on willing to find a totality. Totality is metophore of a freedom. Emptyness of an storage cabinets represents a totality, will to be free. A work, that was created as installation from storage cabinets painting of mine, the huge one, empty pill packs (blisters), shelf, and sculptureal object – cube, made from blisters and cards(utilitarity objects, by which we could feel the touch of strurturing arm of power.
While being trapped in our insecurities, what are provided by disabilities we might have, we can not be empathic even a little bit to the others. In collecting empty pill packs helped: East Tallinn Central Hospital, West Tallinn Central Hospital, Kallavere Hospital and my family. I would like to Thank all hospital workers and wish strength to everyone, who is fighting with difficulties in their lives. Keywords: System critique, COVID-19 Pandemic, Illusion of freedom